Trials in entrepreneurship: redefining business

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When I talk to people about the path of entrepreneurship, many mention how appealing it sounds, but admit they lack the courage to pursue it. I always find this odd, considering those drawn to this path are usually self-starters, diligent workers, and, above all, dreamers–traits that far outweigh courage on this journey.

Perhaps, in the past, leaving a secure job required courage. But now we live in a post-COVID world with frequent layoffs. It is possibly more courageous thinking your 9-to-5 will be there for you in the long run.

So, what’s causing hesitation? Here’s my hunch, and reaffirmed by Rachel Gogel’s recent article in Print magazine. The definition of entrepreneurship, the idea of building something your own, has exploded. Now, being a founder comes with heavy expectations. Your business can't just be yourself or smaller; success is measured by scaling up to become the next billion-dollar venture or game-changer. But these expectations are just that—imposed by others. They're what you feel you should do, but what do you truly want to do?

The greatest challenge you'll encounter on the path of entrepreneurship is redefining what your business means to you. What are your own expectations, your personal aspirations for starting, owning and running this business?


đź’… A personal anecdote

I started my consulting business on a whim and a need. After working in advertising, I realised I wanted more. I wanted to build experiences and learn from them—what worked, what didn't, and what the numbers showed. At first, I didn't have a specific title in mind, but I knew just creating websites wasn't enough. I wanted to solve problems and learn as I went along.

While I scoured the internet for everything on designing software and user research, I took the leap and opened my business. I ended up working with clients across various industries. Not every project was a perfect fit for my goals, but the practice and learning on the job was exactly what I craved. I did everything from designing for 0-1 startups to just filling in on tight timelines. I learned to manage clients, handle finances, and sort out taxes, all while taking my design skills beyond anything I learned in school or at agencies. Writing this makes it sound easy, but it required a lot. A lot of chaos, heartache, doubt and struggle. But it was exactly what I needed at that time in my life. I knew I was capable, but running a business, changing my career, and controlling my schedule showed me I was capable of so much more. As time passed, this realisation sparked a craving for new challenges, particularly to build and grow a product from within a company. So, I decided to put my business on hold and return to an in-house role.

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Further along in my product design career, I hit a roadblock. My AI project had paused further development, leaving me with more admin work than design work. The available roles in Seattle didn't excite me either—they all felt like the same. I craved a major change, a huge shakeup. Before I pursued a career in design, I loved the possibility of working in world history, sociology, and natural sciences. But I wasn’t one for sitting still in lectures—I preferred hands-on learning, and you can't really secure a job in the Smithsonian without a degree or two. I had given up on that dream, but with some savings and support behind me, I decided it was time to revisit it. I reopened my business and took on product design and branding projects to fund my Museum Studies courses.

I structured my weeks to balance client work and coursework. As I delved deeper, I had an idea. Considering the educational challenges in the US and the lack of support for teachers, I wondered if there was a product or service I could create to bridge this gap. I loved the educational games from my childhood and wanted to bring that same spark of curiosity to children in today's heavily connected era. I started pursuing a Masters in Teaching to better understand the process and directly experience working in a school, which was in desperate need of teachers.

I spent six months teaching in a first-grade classroom. As cliché as it sounds, the students taught me more about myself than I was teaching them. Interacting with children about their dreams made me realise I was neglecting my own—I wanted to travel the world and work with people from different cultures. And as much as I wanted to help children and teachers in the US educational system, I realised that another app, game, or startup wasn't going to solve the systemic issues on multiple levels. So, I decided to shift my focus. I wrapped up my exploration of museums and education, thankful for the insights gained. I traveled across APAC, drawn to the incredible wealth of culture and diversity in the region. Eventually, I found the perfect role, building projects across Southeast Asia.

I've run my business since 2012, but it's not traditional—it doesn't always stay open or have employees, and I don't plan to grow it. Like the women in Gogel's article, my business is precisely what I make of it: an oasis that provides independence whenever I wish to learn. As I grow, my business grows around my skills and expertise.


🧙🏻 Navigating this trial

Like redefining ambition, this trial requires you to examine and challenge the differences between your personal beliefs and societal norms. It doesn’t mean abandoning society—you still need its support to run your business. Instead, it's about selecting, choosing, and firmly sticking to what's ideal for you. Here are a couple of things to think through as you navigate this process:

  • What is the real motivation behind your desire to run this business? Is it for freedom, independence, or a passion for a specific field? What drives you beyond the potential for making money? Many people say, "So I can be my own boss and avoid dealing with people," but that's not realistic. Every business involves some level of social interaction, whether with clients, vendors, or customers, you will inevitably need to engage with others. Identifying your core motivation is crucial—it provides the foundation that sustains you during tough times, refocuses you when you're feeling lost, and offers a reminder of why you started during the good times.

  • What does your ideal day look like? And I’m not just talking about work, which is often our default focus when imagining our ideal day. Consider all the small details that shape your daily life. Are you a morning person or a night owl? What other aspects of your life need attention throughout the day—like family, pets, or hobbies? Reflect on these elements to determine how you can structure your business. For instance, I have a friend who, despite living in Asia, works exclusively with North American clients. They're a night owl and prefer working in the late hours. Even if it were lucrative, they wouldn't take on a client in their own time zone because the expectation there would be to work during the day.

  • What struggle are you willing to accept? No business is without its challenges. Leaving a corporate job doesn't magically solve all your problems. Like anything in life, there’s a bit of struggle that you’ll need to either find enjoyment in or be willing to endure on a daily basis. What is that for you? Personally, I don't mind spending all day in meetings and interacting with people, although others might find that exhausting. This shapes what I build my business around and what challenges I'm willing to accept. It's a common misconception that we must be grateful for and accept every opportunity in business. While it's true that in the early stages of a business you might need to take whatever comes your way to stay afloat, this approach left me feeling more burnt out than I ever was in my corporate job. So, it's essential to identify what you are willing to endure and what aligns with your capacity and goals.

I hope my topsy-turvy journey and these insights help you as you consider this path. The joy of entrepreneurship is creating something that aligns with you and your goals. You don’t need to conform; you just need to create your own definitions.

Trials in harmony: redefining ambition

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On any journey down these paths, you will face trials. Things you must overcome or come to terms with. It can be daunting, but these trials shouldn’t be avoided. They are crucial to your growth.

After sharing What’s After This, I had an overwhelming response from colleagues, friends and strangers. What really struck me was how many of you are going down the path of harmony after years or decades of climbing.

But don’t let the name fool you – even on the path of harmony, challenges will still arise, and the toughest you'll face is redefining ambition.

Ambition is a desire to achieve something. Today, though, ambition's meaning has narrowed to encompass only professional accomplishments: advancing in rank, expanding responsibilities, or joining prestigious companies. Our stereotype of ambitious people envisions a person shouldering heavy workloads, burning the midnight oil, and relentlessly pushing through the ranks. I even had trepidations writing that I was on the path of harmony. I thought by admitting it in writing, others might assume I’m uninterested in pursuing higher positions or greater responsibilities.

This is the trap, an illusion. Like Dorothy pulling back the curtain on the Wizard, you too must see the illusion surrounding ambition.


Redefining ambition

Let’s look at the definition again. Ambition is a desire to achieve something. Something. Not a work-something, not a corporate-something. Just something.

The path of harmony is about elevating other aspects of your life. That, in and of itself, is ambitious. Depending on where you are from, your career can shape your entire identity and influence how others perceive and address you. How bold, how daring to rebel against this notion. To say, actually, these aspects of life matter more to me. That’s why older generations are clutching their pearls.

Your life, in all its aspects, demands as much dedication and effort as you would give to your career. Experimenting with routines, finding new hobbies, prioritising time with loved ones—these all require hard work. But the work has it’s rewards: an enriched life, a balance that makes you effective and resilient in any scenario, true contentment.

But contentment does not mean complacency–the hardest part of the illusion to shake. You can still grow and achieve in your professional life without constantly climbing the ladder. The world is filled with opportunities and ambition can take many shapes: mastering a new skill, mentoring others, or confronting something that has always intimidated you.

🧙🏻 Navigating this trial

Redefining ambition is a personal endeavour, but it’s not just about changing what you believe inside. We live in a social world with norms, expectations and beliefs. Once you've redefined your ambitions within yourself, the true test lies in maintaining your resolve in the outside world.

It is not an easy trial, but here is how I overcame it (now I actually am your wizard, dear hero reader):

  • Examining the original ambition. Where did it actually come from? Do you truly want to advance to the next level, or is it more of an unspoken societal expectation? Examine what attracted it to you in the first place. Was it the prospect of taking on new responsibilities, broadening your horizons, or realistically increasing your income?

  • Understanding how society works. I’m a sucker for sociology books and publications. They give you a big-picture view of society, helping you understand the roots of our motivations. Understanding how we define a good worker versus a bad one, or how our society measures success, shapes our own sense of ambition.

  • Being around people with different ambitions. It can be tough to redefine things when you're in an echo chamber. Do the people around you all think alike, or do you have a mix of folks with diverse motivations? If you're missing that, consider reaching out to old friends or acquaintances, or attending events where you can meet new people.

Since this journey is personal, what worked for me might not necessarily work for you. I share this with the hope that it will help you navigate your own trial ahead. If you've faced this challenge before, feel free to share what helped you through it.

A week of joy

I almost didn’t write this roundup. Not because I was avoiding writing or procrastinating; I've actually been busy with both work and social activities. Nearly every day this week has been packed with something.

Over the past couple of months, I've been pondering how I see myself and my life. A recent conversation with Genie made me realise something new in my life: contentment. Sure, I've experienced happiness, sadness, and anger like everyone else. But I never truly savored my life. I always felt like I needed more in every aspect, never feeling satisfied or feeling like I could accomplish more.

During a coffee chat with my friend Tina, she asked me "How do you manage to do it all?" I was taken aback.

While I take pride in myself and my accomplishments, I rarely feel like they're impressive enough. There's always something more to strive for, and there's no time to rest when my days are ticking away on this earth. COVID was a turning point for many people, taking stock of what’s important in this life and choosing a path other than climbing. It wasn’t the same for me–COVID turned out to be the busiest and most hectic time in my career and my life.

It wasn't until last year that I was able to pause and reflect on my life, viewing it from an outside perspective. I realized everything I've achieved and where I truly stand in my life. It's a beautiful realisation. And like anything beautiful, it deserves to be savored, contemplated, and enjoyed.


Reading

My ventures into White Christian nationalists has been a little heavy. Honestly, I never learn my lesson; I dive headfirst into heavy topics, then wondering why I have no desire to read my books.

Instead I’ve been enjoying lighthearted stories in webcomics from South Korea.


Watching

I am actually bored of TV. Nothing is appealing to me at the moment.


Listening

Living in Sydney and learning its history, I realized I'm witnessing the real-time effects of the lockout laws. Newtown was once known for its alternative and punk venues, where any day you could catch a live show featuring a local band. Now, shows are relegated to venues with a casino corner to bypass the laws and stay open late. On Saturday, I went out to support a colleague’s show. When I mentioned the venue, The Townie, to people, I kept hearing the same response: "It's so grimy and grungy." I was excited, expecting a proper dive with the potential for a mosh pit (though I wouldn't participate, too whimpy). Instead, it was just another cookie-cutter pub with the same casino carpet, overly clean, and identical layout meant to entice people to gamble. Very unpunk.

However, the music was great. I was thrilled for show, reminiscent of The Misfits and Black Flag. I banged by head and my ears were ringing by the end. Check out ZEROZEROZERO if you’re keen.


Eating

My basil, rosemary, and thyme plants are thriving, but I haven't had the chance to use them to their fullest. The current humidity in Sydney rules out drying them. This coming week, I'll attempt a simple pesto to use up some of my abundant basil. It's become a haven for insects: praying mantises and slugs, which attract miner birds that pluck at the leaves as they attempt to get their next meal. Some sections are riddled with holes, while the rest looks picturesque. The same happened with my bird’s eye chili plants, but I couldn't figure out the cause for months. I searched the internet for plant issues and diseases, only to spot a young bird pecking away outside one day. Magpies get the bad rap here, swooping in spring, but the real troublemakers are the miner birds.

What's after this?

A person staring down an empty road, the city skyline illuminated by the sunset, in a pixel art style. Image created in Midjourney.

A person staring down an empty road, the city skyline illuminated by the sunset, in a pixel art style. Image created in Midjourney.

As you progress in your career–be it as a creative, designer, researcher, or content designer–you may find yourself at a confusing crossroad. You are passionate, but you feel disillusioned. You want to reignite the excitement you felt as a junior, but you are jaded from your years of experience. You want to think about your next step, but the daily grind of work pulls you in. You are tired, yet you aspire for more.

Deciding what to do next, choosing the next path in your metaphorical journey, requires inner focus, a bit of introspection. There are so many paths we can take, so many possibilities that it sometimes turns too daunting, scary. There are also tons of resources and writing about this; I’m not the metaphorical wizard with all the answers. But if you find yourself avoiding this process or unsure of where to begin, here are four to get you thinking:

  • The path of climbing

  • The path of entrepreneurship

  • The path of renewal

  • The path of harmony

Like a hero setting out into the unknown, all four require a change, in yourself, in your mindset, in your perception; all are worthy and worth it. As you read, pay attention to your reactions—what resonates with you, what sparks a thought, and what feels utterly unappealing. Choose your own adventure and see where you go.


The path of climbing

In a practical sense, climbing means advancing your title or role within companies in your industries. You could grow within one or move between multiple companies. You could focus on being a leader in your craft, manage a group of people or a combination of both.

There are many variations to climbing, but the change required is the same: going beyond yourself, beyond your personal contributions, in many senses. You will need to guide or mentor people, you will need to influence in many directions, and you will need to systemically understand your company inside and out.

So far, you've likely gauged success on your individual achievements. If you choose on this path, but solely prioritise your own interests, you might face failure. In the hero’s journey, you turn into the villain—someone others avoid working with, despite any material success you bring to the company.

Part of the change is shift your mindset. How can you empower others or use your influence to bring positive changes. Consider how the people around you can excel and grow within this corporate system. Where can you create changes across the organisation that uplift everyone?


The path of entrepreneurship

Listen, we are in a different era. In the past, being in a corporate setting guaranteed much to your life–advancements, stability, a ladder to success. That is not necessarily the case anymore. There is so much opportunity that can be made for yourself.

Freelance, fractional and part-time work gives you the choice of what you want to work; the choice to walk away from a project, the choice of when you work, the choice of where you spend your time. The path of entrepreneurship is not easy, but it is exciting. You will grow at a rate you’ve never seen in yourself, you will see how much more you are capable of.

The change you need to make is keeping the excitement. You will need to find a consistent source of energy; you will need to know how to refill it. Venturing on your own is tough. You will be alone, though the internet has helped build communities to combat this.


The path of renewal

Discovering that design, or related fields, might not be your calling is perfectly fine. It's a blessing to gain this insight early on. Now, you have the chance to explore what truly brings you joy. Maybe you've picked up on some hints along the way—a passion that lights you up.

Choosing this path doesn’t mean you throw away everything you know; the skills you have will be valuable no matter what you choose. There may be smaller leaps, like designer to product manager or researcher to designer. There may be huge leaps, like designer to lawyer.

The key change you'll need to embrace is flexibility. Your skills can span across various fields, allowing you to apply them in diverse ways. Flexibility means recognising that you can transfer skills over and learn new ones. However, you can't shift directly from being an expert designer to say…an expert beekeeper. You'll need to relearn and become a novice again. Flexibility means acknowledging what can and cannot be transferred and being open to starting anew.


The path of harmony

When you look at your life, does it all fit together smoothly? Are you exactly where you want to be in every aspect? Maybe there are areas that feel lacking, but you haven't had the chance to address them, to achieve balance. There might be numerous goals beyond your career that demand equal, if not more, time and attention: expanding your social circle, deepening connections, or spending more time with loved ones.

Choosing this path requires dealing with baggage, often difficult to voice. We've been conditioned to believe that prioritising anything outside of our careers means sacrificing success. But in reality, finding fulfilment beyond work is what truly leads to success. It means more energy, better decision making and general happiness about your day-to-day.

The change you need to make is prioritising harmony. Perhaps work has always taken precedence, but now it's time to elevate other aspects of your life to the same level of importance. How will you navigate that? It’s not just setting strict work hours–it’s about letting go and giving more space to the other aspects of your life.

Further writing


I've explored various paths in my career, but I've mainly followed the path of climbing. I once believed it was the sole route to take, but now I'm exploring the path of harmony. Surprisingly, my productivity hasn't waned; in fact, I feel like I’m flourishing. I find it easier to make decisions and tackle challenges with renewed energy. Which path caught your attention?

A week of nostalgia

I've been working on a piece about advancing in your career, one that I have been stuck rewriting endlessly. I started writing to combat my perfectionism, a habit that seemed to help me excel, but now hinders me. The fear of imperfection often holds me back from sharing my thoughts fully or taking certain actions. Ironically, I don’t expect perfection from anyone, I know it’s not possible. And yet, I expect it of myself.

Whenever I get in this mode, I get into a reflective mode. Nostalgia isn't always the best approach, but it does help me. When I was first navigating the web, I went through the realms of Geocities, Blogger and LiveJournal. I learned from strangers sharing their lives and interests. I loved having a personal space online to share freely, going through the dramas of school and figuring out my aspirations.

I want to recreate that here. A weekly look at what is going on in my life and in my brain.


Reading

Finishing Preparing for War sent me down another hyper-fixation hole. The book's portrayal of Christian nationalists reminded me of the satanic panic from my middle school days. I was navigating adolescence and wanted to hide. My wardrobe became baggy, unrevealing, clothes traditionally worn by boys. This caused quite a stir, resulting in my parents getting called into the principal's office because of the “distraction” I was causing. The distraction being visibly different, potentially a lesbian–cue the shock and horror. It didn’t matter if I had good grades or kept to myself. Being visibly outside of the norm was enough to trigger arbitrary rules–no stationary with the Care Bears (seen as the “devil”) and no stacked bracelets (a bizarre adult scare story circulated on the evening new). It's not about concern or care, nor is it about upholding Christian values; it's solely about exerting control.


Watching

I have been craving a 90s-00s romantic comedy. Something light, with a good mix of romantic moments and comedic misunderstandings. Modern romantic comedies seem more interested in capturing the essence of our current era rather than the timeless charm of romance itself. You’ve Got Mail but none of the fantastical charm. If you have any suggestions, feel free to share. I've chosen to remain within the confines of a nostalgic era instead.

I watched Only You, which had electrifying chemistry between Marisa Tomei and Robert Downey Jr. Two delusional people coming together in a fanfiction-like plot, simply delicious. Greedy for more, I watched Miami Rhapsody solely based its poster. A witty (?) examination of the charm (??) of infidelity in marriage; it’s only redeeming quality was Sarah Jessica Parker’s wardrobe.


Listening

Marvin Gaye’s What’s Going On. I bought this vinyl in Canberra, but never got a chance to try it out until the blistering weather kept me indoors this weekend. I love a concept album. Give me a narrative, some dramatic strings and I’m set.


Eating

I’m venturing into salt-preserving. Honestly, I ran out of vinegar and needed a plan for a large batch of nectarines. This summer's crop has been unbelievably sweet, tempting me to grab three or four more every time I pass the store. But like any fixation, I quickly grew bored of them and left with a fridge full of fruit. Salting brings out the sweetness of the fruit apparently, creating a striking contrast between sugar and saline. But the process requires patience from me; almost a week of fermentation, then further curing in the fridge.